Monday, November 29, 2010

Love.....Love Letters

Once I new my girl was "the one" so long ago, I started saving all our emails to one another.  At first it was because we had such a good rapport with one another it just felt right to save our words to one another to cherish them.  Also because I did not save anything from any of my previous relationships, even if I did I would toss it, except my little monster Priest (dog) from the clutches of what would have been a horrible life with the now ex-wife.

Yea, I have hundreds of emails dating back from that chance meeting late in 2008.  Now that meeting has spawned a fun life with growth, happiness and an expected child.  Now that plan to save our words written with love, anger, apologies and everything in-between to one another can be a testament to our love and life with one another, and one day I hope that our children can read those words and know that YES you can find that love and watch it grow and create another life from that love; rather than some of the hell the unprotected sex babies of any generation have to endure with the words BABY DADDY/MOMMY ingrained in their souls; not to mention the fighting, abandonment and god forbid abuse, and think its normal.

Even though children cannot express themselves in such a manner, they look, listen and understand what goes on between the ones we call Mom and Dad; it's that hidden nurturing that we give them, that is created between the positivity and love flowing between parents that strengthens a child, there is a reason why it's frowned upon why children should not be having babies, love is not love when it's that young and the soul of your child has nothing to feed on; if either parent compensated for both father AND mother then maybe the child has a slim chance.

Who knows if our love will last until one of us leave this earth.....if it doesn't, hey it blessed me with a beautiful son and I gave all my love with no regrets.  For better or worse I will always be connected with this wonderful woman whom helped truly start our family.

Only death can stop me from raising my child, and it took a child to show me how to put away my childish things and begin, as a man, to lay the foundation to one day raise him to be a man.

Brandon, I'm your father and I'm going to show you one hell of a life, son; hope you're ready.

BSoM

2 comments:

Dope Fiend said...

this is beaituful.
That you're looking after your child, that you love his mother with all your heart, that your experience has been nurturing, and a beautiful experience.

Definitely keeps the rest of us hopeful, or me at least.
xx

BronxStateOfMind said...

Thank you DF, means a lot; but no worries go out and look for it, then take a break, maybe it might look for you; just don't stop living your life and bringing in fun and new things. A waiting person who does nothing, does just that the rest of their life....waiting

And i hate waiting, do you?