I always thought change was easy; but I've actually changed as a person for others and let me tell you, to change yourself to the core for anyone requires a person with such strong will power it's exhausting.
I've seen many people try and fail, to lazy, to forgetful, way too selfish to do more for others than for themselves.
It also hurts when you've basically made yourself into a better person and it feels so underappreciated. But how can someone appreciate something they've never done nor have the power to do.
This is the fight i have, this is why the good part of me fades in and out with people because i don't find the same type of people that show the same focus and care for another good person. Talk to someone and if that person never goes out of their way to find your cares, your motivations and shows genuine interest in what you do then they are selfish. You become a trash can for their feelings.
All the while you know, agree, sympathize, learn and help them with their self worth, they feel better for it, but as soon as you open your mouth, they are ready to walk away happy without being that person for you. Might as well have been emotionally raped.
Why in my life i always lose out to LUST, i can never win when the bright person in me that everyone will love never comes out because selfish people ignore it and only take for themselves to make them feel better.
What good is having friends when all they did was treat me like a fucking trash can because i wasn't able to loan them money, hook them up with girls, opportunities or bolster them as a person.
An insightful person is a lost treasure in a friend or lover. Someone who can see beyond the normal and make you think better, imagine better, see and feel more than you knew you could because their way of thinking surpasses your own.
But when you're in it for the quick fix i guess you're the type to burn through people in your life than those that make lasting connections.
Is it wrong to want to FEEL like the only person in your life, to be your focus and the target of your affections and caring, to know that no matter who comes in your life that I don't compare to them; to know I'm defended by you even if I'm wrong, to make my mistakes and missteps feel like a learning experience rather than be punished for them.
I'm a man, I'm strong.........but I'm stronger when you have my back.
I've seen many people try and fail, to lazy, to forgetful, way too selfish to do more for others than for themselves.
It also hurts when you've basically made yourself into a better person and it feels so underappreciated. But how can someone appreciate something they've never done nor have the power to do.
This is the fight i have, this is why the good part of me fades in and out with people because i don't find the same type of people that show the same focus and care for another good person. Talk to someone and if that person never goes out of their way to find your cares, your motivations and shows genuine interest in what you do then they are selfish. You become a trash can for their feelings.
All the while you know, agree, sympathize, learn and help them with their self worth, they feel better for it, but as soon as you open your mouth, they are ready to walk away happy without being that person for you. Might as well have been emotionally raped.
Why in my life i always lose out to LUST, i can never win when the bright person in me that everyone will love never comes out because selfish people ignore it and only take for themselves to make them feel better.
What good is having friends when all they did was treat me like a fucking trash can because i wasn't able to loan them money, hook them up with girls, opportunities or bolster them as a person.
An insightful person is a lost treasure in a friend or lover. Someone who can see beyond the normal and make you think better, imagine better, see and feel more than you knew you could because their way of thinking surpasses your own.
But when you're in it for the quick fix i guess you're the type to burn through people in your life than those that make lasting connections.
Is it wrong to want to FEEL like the only person in your life, to be your focus and the target of your affections and caring, to know that no matter who comes in your life that I don't compare to them; to know I'm defended by you even if I'm wrong, to make my mistakes and missteps feel like a learning experience rather than be punished for them.
I'm a man, I'm strong.........but I'm stronger when you have my back.
