Put All That Is Toxic Behind You

I saw you, that is to say I seen you...in my rear view,

My only mission I have now is to surpass you,

Surpass the levels of pain you fed me on the daily,

The guilt trips to nowhere,

But out of a wall of tears flows a new man with a lovely plan to live the life I dream with a new fam,

A better love that gives me hope with each pump of blood,

The heart is stronger now this time around, to see through the cover of the silent demon you kept hidden away, you know the one who took the reigns during our battles after the real you ran away,

Unable to stand on the sand you called your solid foundation, I built a new home you're never welcomed in, our last chapter of life together is done, call it revelations.

BSoM

Don't Qoute Me Boy Cuz I Ain't Said Shit...

Through my short time on this earth there are a few things that shook or shaped my life; this time around its a few selective quotes that either changed my way of thinking or just my outlook on life.  Granted these aren't all just some I could think of at the time and stick out the most in my mind.

First was:
"Never kiss anyone's ass"

This one is one of the rare things I learned from my father when he was around to raise me.  Don't get me wrong he wasn't a bad father, but to compared the life I had with him as a true father/son relationship it falls way short.  He told me this one day and it really stuck; I guess back in his day when things were much rougher for minorities he didn't want me to do what he might have done to keep a job.  Sure my family can be considered to some to be lucky (who think in that way) just cuz we're light skinned Puerto Rican's with "good hair" (which I find idiotic in this day and age; small minds make for small thoughts).........but consider the day and age.  My dad lived the active part of his life which was the 70's to the early 90's.  All we were considered was the non-threatening looking people from the ghetto they could work with, but kept at arm's length.

He use to work at a supermarket around Pelham Parkway up in the BX; i guess as a way of showing me what hard work can be, earn some change and in a weird way to spend some time with me he let me pack bags at the registers, yes this was my first job, lol.  Aside from trying to fuck every piece of pussy in that place (which i think he did) i saw his interactions with his higher ups whom he worked his ass off for.  They basically made him the guy to run the store while they were his overseers....but of course not making the same money as they were.  This enforced that jewel he dropped on me and while i will never kiss anyone's ass, i do extend a curtain respect that people in general deserve. If they fuck that up?  Well, respect is easily taken as it was given.


Next:
"Sometimes It's Good To Be A LITTLE Selfish"

This one i kinda developed on my own; not because I'm a selfish bastard or anything (but piss me off or rub me the wrong way and i can be).  It came about, i believe, when i was giving someone advice who felt like they were doing their best to keep their head above water; they felt people were pulling them down.  They didn't want to NOT help people, but they didn't want to be taken down with them making it a loss for all involved.

I basically told them "why would you hurt yourself so bad that you cant/wont help anyone in the future for this person".  Face it a lot of people we know can be takers if all you are is a giver.  Now this is not me saying not to help anyone, but even Jesus said "get your ass up and learn to fish cuz I'm not gonna be serving you every time you tell me you're hungry!!!"  Y'all bible thumpers know the quote I'm talking about.

If you're strong enough to help someone then who would stop you?  But if you're running on fumes try not to hurt your life to help someone cuz then it will be two people that lose.


Another:
"Learning From Your Mistakes Is Smart, But Learning from Others Mistakes Is Wise"

This is a Chinese Proverb that i picked up in High School and really never left my head.  I like it cuz it straight to the point and letting you know other people go through shit everyday; keep your eyes and ears open so if you have a chance to learn from what they been through you're a few steps ahead of this game called life (and NO not that funky board game).


Another:
A Jack Of All Trades Is A Master Of None"

This one kinda floored me when i read it in an article somewhere.  And its kinda true; i would kinda consider myself a light jack of all trades, but as soon as i read the end of this quote it felt all too real.  Aside from being a Paralegal, I'm not really a master of anything i do well.  I know computers....up to a point; i love science and learning about it, but never followed that field.  I'm extremely organized person that can keep track of my stuff that i organize, yet i wonder why i never ended up in the career field of Logistics.  I doubt at my age there are many "missed opportunities", but if i don't want to miss out then i need to see what i can become a master at.

And so should you.......

BSoM

A Car Driving By With A BOOMIN' System...

I guess from time to time when I find some interesting music I will post my opinion about it; such as the Travis Barker remix of Forever a few days ago.

The last FULL album i was rocking was that Slaughterhouse CD and that is PURE LYRICAL FIRE.
GET. IT. NOW.  Especially if you are a hip hop lyrical head.  Your walls will bleed when you blast that at home.

Right now what is making me deaf for the past few weeks since its release is Lil Wayne's No Ceiling Mixtape; now i know there are a bunch of people who couldnt give a fuck about him and thats cool; he's not my favorite, but he does rise above most who just rap about the same thing over and over and over again; I do enjoy his twist and style.

The ignorant side of me likes it a lot, but the side of me that acutally uses brain power sees it as a good listen, but since a free mixtape with him spitting with no apparent structure as he would for an album it lacks a path for someone to follow when listening to a story.  Well except for songs that are geared towards women and his ability to be a playa and handle his chicks; he's kinda on point with those songs alone.

The beat jacking he does is cool and he picked some hot tracks to jack.  My fav's are Wasted, Banned from TV and Run This Town; honorable mention is I Gotta Feeling.

The thing about him releasing this album for free to his fans is that most the songs (again) lacks a story line and just filled with punchline after punchline and over the top word play.  He's basically saying the things he's saying to say them cuz he thinks they are hot, but i have to agree most of it is hot if that's the sort of thing you are into when you listen to music like this.

Out of 10 i would give this a 7.5; it's a good listen and a nice change from the songs that these beats belong to that play on the radio a hundred times a day.

BSoM

PURE HOTNESS!!!!!!! Tell EVERYONE About It!

SPREAD THE WORD KIDS.....DONT BE SELFISH EVERYONE NEEDS TO KNOW HE DOES THIS.

Travis Barker is the man on the drums and has done something that is simply amazing.  Through his skills he is able to remix songs with his own amazing drum tracks that even if you shun all forms of music except Hip-Hop he makes you bang your head until its damn near READY TO FALL OFF.

His remixes of Soulija Boy's - Crank Dat, Busta Rhymes - Dont Touch Me Now and a bunch of others is nothing short of jaw dropping amazing.  He even blesses us with video of the making of his personal remix which shows you the purness of his genius.  I listen to this so loud and so often my ears hurt.

Shout out to the cave man who grabbed two stick and started banging on dried anamial skin becuase if he didnt we wouldnt have this.

Hardcore shit that will never stink.

BSoM

P.S. He KILLED it during the Wayne verse.

News Article:
http://www.mtv.com/news/articles/1626034/20091111/barker__travis.jhtml

Download Song:
http://usershare.net/cvhvumsu7jr3

Good Lord I Ate A Lot Of Subway

You know what.....fuck Jared, fuck him in his skinny ass with one of his foot long Subway sandwiches with extra chipotle sauce.

Forget it, leave his ass alone......i was just mad.

I started playing the subway scrabble game so i basically upped my intake of their food in hopes of winning something nice; considering some of my luck recently i decided to give it a go.

Closest i've gotten were two instant prizes for a gaming site that is tied into the promotions; also all i need is the letter S to win an island vacation; now being i just came back from a cruise for my birthday week i really wouldn't mind heading out again to someplace nice! (more on the cruise later, work has me crazy busy)

It seems like i wont really get anything out of this except the turds i'm leaving in the toilet........My loss can be some what your gain; i got a ton of those promo 20% discount codes for Champs Sports.......and i dont really shop with them for sporting goods so i might as well hit you guys up with it, if ya need to shave off a few dolla bills from that online order.

Use at www.champssports.com
20% discount on all orders; dont know if you can use more than one at one time
(most likely you can't)

Redeem by 12/31/2009
(can't use past that date, for the dummies that dont know what REDEEM means)

For some reason it has Cashier Code on the tickets, its: 72920
(same for all, doubt if you'll need it)

1. NSKH-JWTW-DBQJ

2. BFZQ-BSZX-RCSJ

3. FTXV-TQQQ-RXSL

4. JHKR-FLFK-MFTD

5. JJKL-SZLS-MZND

6. ZSMH-RRXF-JVNS

7. KCZK-QJCL-TCVQ

8. QNPV-LMJJ-QLWX

9. HVDN-LBDR-SCDR

Get'em while their hot!!!


BSoM

WHO. WANT. WHAT.

I'm back! I got some shit to post; some good, some bad and God knows what else that oozes the fuck outta my head; as random as my thoughts are....anything can be written.

To all those that waited just to see the ideas of someone that might offer insight or just to hate and call me plain crazy, thank you.

My life is still focused on my love that has my heart and dealing with the shit heads i have to face day in & out; i just know i gotta post up which helps hit the release valve on my brain box.

Right now i can't wait to get home, spend time with my girl and watch the season finale of True Blood; they really stepped their shit up this season.

But watching out of shape people with black eyeballs gyrating in pudding filled piles of human skin on the floor in public is not an erection giver.  Also who the fuck gets the nickname EGGS.......you'd think he'd have a farting problem.

Peace, One Love, and I Love Titties (like it or not sharing is caring!!!!)

BSoM

P.S.  Feels good to write again :-)


**Orange Juice U Argie**

I Thank God I Kept My Hairline

Woooooooo, I was saving this picture to go along with a stress post I was going to write a month or so ago. The stressed flipped into blog posting laziness and its only now i'm able to put stuff up without pounding on my keyboard like i'm trying to smash the friggin' thing to bits.

I'm still debating weather I should just speak on the things I've had to do and gone through, but as of last week really the final big boulder has been taken off my back and i'm doing much better; God blessed me with a better and new support system that puts me in a place i felt i should have been at a long time ago.

Hope for something that can help breed positivity in your life long enough and doesn't wish bad on anyone and it will truly be granted.

Always remember to give back as much goodness that has been given to you; keep that cycle alive.

BSoM

Not Recommened For Large Foreheads

I find it more stress relieving if you take the head of the person causing you your stress and bang their head against this wonderful anti-stress device.

BSoM

My Crawling Creativity

In my life I've been blessed with a strange way of thinking; is it just mental illness or just creativity unfocused?

Of course I'll lean towards the latter since mental illness doesn't run in my family.......much.

The way I think (to me) is very painful; I'm into so many things that inspire new ways of thinking on top of the fact that I hardly forget anything nor do I want to forget anything. I'm also what you might call a Never Ending Problem Solver by which any question or situation that is presented to me I do my best to solve it or work around it if I can't punch through it. It's a lot to process every waking hour.

My mind doesn't rest, but it stalls the way I function. By that I mean the way you think is not dictated by the clock on the wall. I'll be the first to admit I can be a slow person when something is not a rush; plenty of people can testify a little to loud to this too, lol. Most of that is due to me being stuck in my own head on whatever thought occupies me at the time; by the time I notice I've wasted daylight and god forbid wasted mine or someone else time. Which can make me feel bad......slightly.

It's kinda bad since being like this slows me down, but I walk away with new things in my mind that might help me or someone else since I believe helping people any way you can brings positivity to you; just dont hurt yourself to much to help someone.

One thing that I like, but kinda has me worried is a lot of my creativity comes out if i'm working with someone; that back and forth can be great and spawns wonderful ideas, but me with my never ending self-questioning asks "can I bring that out of myself alone?". Time will tell if I can find an answer to that question.

BSoM

It Can Help You Or Get The Better Of You

Nowadays by nature people are (or can be) very paranoid. Of course there are varying degrees which can be tolerated if you have someone like this in your life, but at a persons core, everyone is a bit paranoid.

I know I am.

I guess it's that part of my nature that questions everything. Or that little voice in the back of my head that always says "are you sure".

Trust issues can spawn this; believe me I had MAJOR trust issues (keyword HAD); but as always you have to learn from it. Or it will eat you from the ass up.

Trust your instincts and beat the snakes from the grass.

BSoM

Been Around A While, But Still A Must See...

A few months ago i had the pleasure of seeing the show The Blue Man Group. I gotta say i'm not a "theater guy" whatsoever, but this show i loved.

Of course this isn't the whole sing and dance kinda show.......i mean come on what other show incorporates Captain Crunch as a stage prop?

I intentionally wore a bright blue shirt with a really bright blue tie for the event; which was kinda over dressing since people were in street clothes and hats, but no matter. The highlight for me is i was picked to turn the lights off to the whole theater (there is some crowd participation). It was a great and fun time. These guys are gifted and really funny.

Overall i enjoyed the show and highly recommend it. Its not corny or lame. It was a fun night out.

BSoM

Lord Bring The Summer Time Cuz.....

Honestly, as the good weather creeps in i'm doing plenty of fun stuff; God knows last summer went straight down the toilet, the fall and winter spawned something that is growing quickly and gaining ground and is the main focus in my life.

This year is a focused TAKE NO SHIT year for me. If you're in my life you can either stand aside, walk with me or get walked over. My tongue begged for me to stop biting it, but trust I still have verbal venom control :-)~

Most of my goals are clear and being reached one by one. Summer will shine on us and the road will be rocky before its smooth. I will enjoy every second of the ride.

BSoM

Play With My Emotions, Not My Money...

I work around Wall Street and lets just say I'm glad these fat useless business men didn't start jumping out their windows cuz of this ruined economy. We're a long way from the 1930's, but back then they took shit more seriously that they would actually end their life when stressed enough or faced with a 180 degree about face with their finances.

We can't forget to thank former President George W. Bush and his buddies for setting the stage for this mess and handing President-elect Barack Obama with a nice pile of economic bullshit wrapped in a cute little bow.

As with anything that happens in the world; things will come out of this blunder that will of course strengthen the economy for years to come.

I guess sometimes you do need greedy selfish idiots in charge to really effect positive change for the rest of us. Times are changing and I hope this habit the U.S. has changes with it.

BSoM