I've Been Feelin' Like A Beast

I just dont know what is it, these past few weeks i've been feeling like a beast. Anything i do i want to do it with force, with strong feeling, with a drive that makes me want to knock down walls and stand on a pile of rocks banging my chest, showing my teeth and scream that human primal scream.

I see it as a positive cuz most of the time i let myself play the background with what i would kinda guess to call a "silent inner power" (when i'm having a good day). I hope this feeling last a bit longer before i get into winter mode which i'm trying to break.

I met an old aquantince while i was at the gym and while he was busy staring at the women trying to beam out that "playboy vibe" while i just focused on working out; we chatted real quick and i said i want to do the opposite of what peoples natural body clock tells them to do for the seasons; I dont want to be laid up in bed at home durning the winter gaining weight and then get my ass out and about to get myself right when spring/summer comes.

Next summer i want to be out & runnin', maybe hit the gym for some stamina training instead of losing weight for those hot summer days when i'd rather be beach bound or whatever.

All that aside i'm really running with this beast feeling and enjoying it until i hit my bad spot cuz at least i know that i have that side of me and as a man, it feels good. I wish i had it before, but we come into our own at our own pace. No one is the same. Nor should we be what people want from us if we're not ready.

BSoM

You Gotta Becareful

I was at the gym last night and when you walk in you immediately see some weight machines and the row of treadmills.....well after i did my cardio and working towards the weight machines I noticed this older woman, shes looks about late 30's early 40's and the only reason i noticed her was she was going hard on the treadmill.

I set myself up on one of the machines and ready to do my thing and guess who comes flying off the fucking thing like she's being thrown by an unknown force and some how her water bottle went with her. I felt bad and laughed inside after she looked like she was ok and brushed herself off. The pain on her face seemed more from embarrassment cuz it was a packed house so all eyes were on her.

Lesson learned.......know your limits or you will get hurt. Be safe when you plan on passing your limitations.

I Recommend...

Working out.......

I'm just sorry I didn't develop this drive early in life and i just hope i can reach my goals at my age (30) as if i was in my early twenties. At my worst I've been floating between 250 to 300 lbs and i'm only 5'10/11. So yea i looked like a butterball. Through the years I've slowly been gaining ground on having a body that i want and need..........not to mention the current stresses I have now.............I dipped down to (as of this morning) 214 lbs with my body tone coming in nicely cuz of the cardio/weight training and weight loss.

When my stimulus check came in from the government and i was taking a walk to clear my head i saw a sale banner from this dinky hood gym and took advantage of the deal hoping it wouldn't turn out like my last membership to the fancy N.Y.S.C. in Manhattan and going once a month for a few months then canceling the membership. It was the best investment i've put towards myself. It gets me out of the house so i don't have to choose between working out and sitting on the couch on the computer and watching TV, cuz no matter what shit you say the TV will always win out while you generate excuse after excuse to tell yourself you will work out tomorrow.

I'm amazed at how my body has responded quickly to the workout regimen I've made for myself and its helping me clear my head and make some positive mental space.

If you're going through some tough times, don't lash out at other, yourself or do something that is not in your character and will regret later.

Find your space and plan something out and work yourself out. I read a few things where working out helps with the body chemistry and you feel less stressed. What can be negative about helping your body get stronger and mind relaxed? You will be too tired to deal with the bullshit going on and know that its not worth letting the stress destroy your body.

This is by no means is a bible to a good workout; it is only a template that i hope you can use and switch up to your preferences with what is available in your area. You can even plan a good workout without having a memebership to a gym and use the world as your gym.

Since i have a mix of moderate body fat, but still have a decent muscle structure I am able to start my work out like this:

Please have the proper clothes and workout sneakers; like i said i joined a hood gym and people are working out correctly, but you do have the people who work out with jewlery, shit i've seen dude work out with jeans!! So do yourself a favor and get proper gear before you work out. Focus especially on sneakers cuz you can really hurt your feet if you dont have proper footwear.

Start
1. Stretch - Most important, never start a workout without this.

2. 5 to 15 minutes cardio (or more*) - I prefer the stair master, but find your zone with whatever equipment.

3. Stretch again - always helpful if muscles tightened up slightly.

--------------------
*Stop here if you are really over weight you should really focus on a ton of cardio mixed with different cardio machines and your diet before you add weight training to your regimen.
--------------------
Work with a trainer or do your research on how to approach weight training and tone/ strengthening your muscle structure. Develop a nice set/rep (i do 3 sets of 10 repetitions) situation for the weights and equipment you use. You want to gradually grow your body to something wonderful, it will not happen quickly.
--------------------

4. I split my visits with upper and lower body workouts. Alternating working your structure from waist down and waist up helps so that if one part of you is sore from yesterdays workout you can work the other half instead of insanely working out your whole body and having to take a long rest away from the gym because your whole body is too sore or wrecked to visit.

5. Stretch again and take a 5 minute breather and always have plenty of water with you. Take a quick walk to keep your body warmed up if they have an big enough area that is not in use.

6. 3 to 5 minutes cardio.

7. Cool down & stretch again.

Break that laziness barrier and do something positive for yourself and you will see that it will be positive for the people around you and affect them as well. Lead by example.