Please DO NOT Elect This Man Nov. 4th

I fear for the safety of all the Equus caballus (Horses to you and I). This man must not be elevated to the post of President of The United States. If he can take sexual advantage of a horse while for whatever reason it has its head in (or stuck) a tree......imaging what he will do to the rest of us once he's in charge of the most powerful country in the world.

Yes I did weep a little inside when i saw this horrific act. I will pray for the safety of the person who took this picture for i believe they will not be long for this world.

Vote for change; Vote against horse rape; Vote for Obama

BSoM

Happy Holloween Ya'll

Please refrain from acting like the above idiots when out partying this Halloween evening. I don't know what i might do, I'll just see what my friends are up to. Dont know if I'll dress the part either. Its been a while and its kinda late getting something.

BSoM

To All The Faceless, These Are My Mantra's

I have a lot of things i tell myself to get myself through difficult situations or just through the day. Below are some of the things i keep close to me to help myself deal with the world as i see it.

Who are The Faceless.....most of you are. I enjoy my visitors weather you leave a comment or not, but most of you i do not know, you are my faceless friends/fans/critics/supporters and i hope my words bring you a different kinda insight from those who choose to not peek from above the box that is their life that crosses paths with yours.

What are your Mantra's? Below are mine.

TO EACH THEIR OWN

Think of everyone as having their own Vibe Line; you know like the strings on a musical instrument; we all create our own sounds/vibe along side one another. This is what helps me prepare myself to deal with someone I've never dealt with. I never have any curtain expectation when dealing with a person because once you interact with them and you have your mind open you can feel their vibe and hopefully it will be a positive exchange; if it is...wonderful...continue that growth and learn as much as you can from one another. If not, take what you learned and grow within while you move on with your life.

A PLACE FOR EVERYTHING AND EVERYTHING IN ITS PLACE

This is just the OCD organizer in me. I admire those that can keep a controlled mess around them, but something about me and the way I'm wired likes to have everything in line, shaped up straight and put in its proper place. It's a weird zone i put myself in and i do get in over my head because organization does get tricky when you're dealing with too much detail.

UNDERSTANDING IS KEY

I've gone through tons of things in my life, but these are my experiences, my bags i must carry until i set them down when the time calls for it. To understand someones situations and thought processes as to why they are going through what they are going through is key to helping them maneuver through the stress and reach resolution. Besides it also grows your understanding of a
person and things around you. The best Chinese proverb I've ever heard was "To learn from your mistakes is smart, to learn from other peoples mistakes is wise". Some of you may not want to open your eyes and ears to others when they need someone, but think about what you might learn for your own good.

NEVER KISS ANYONE'S ASS

This is one of the few things I've learned from my father. No one respects an ass kisser and those that do only get used. Stand strong, but not over bearing and always know that respect is not achieved by brown nosing.

YOU WILL NEVER KNOW UNLESS YOU TRY/ASK

You wanna try something? You wanna know something? What the fuck are you standing around waiting for......try it, ask for it. Never sit around wondering if you should; hoping it will come to you instead of you going to it. Do what you need to do to bolster yourself up, but don't take too long, then go get yours. Don't let those situations pile up from when you wish you would have asked or tried something when the opportunity presented itself. Regret is like a cold finger down the crack of your ass....a funny and unpleasant feeling.

SOMEONE OUT THERE HAS IT WORSE

Its kinda hard to think about it because you have to touch on someone else's misery to know that whatever you're going through.....you really haven't hit the bottom of the barrel. Know that life throws people many challenges and you may not wish to think of it, someone out there is getting it worse than you'll ever imagine. Keeps things in perspective when you bitch about something someone wish they could bitch about, but can't.

DO MORE NOW TO DO LESS LATER

Kinda self explanatory. Don't be lazy, lol.

WHEN THE TIME CALLS FOR IT WORK ON YOURSELF, BE A LITTLE SELFISH

Do people gravitate towards you? Do they feel you are their dock to their wandering ship? How battered and drained do you feel after being someones "go to guy"? Take that time out for yourself, be selfish enjoy your life and please yourself, hell have others please you for a change. Its best to recharge yourself from time to time so those that seek your light through their storm know that you will always be there. But be nice and give fair warning to those you will ignore so in a way you'll still be there for them, but you're gently nudging them on a path to help themselves when you're not around cuz you're on your "me time" grind.

BSoM

Body Upkeep....A Few Thoughts

Growing up in a home and being the only male AND the youngest made me realize a few things about the upkeep of a human being. I really didn't see it as "women upkeep" cuz i cant front my dad wasn't living with us and when he and i would spend the little time we did together i noticed he kept himself really proper for the simple fact......you have to take care of yourself.

Right now all I'm focusing on in this post is appearance. A books contents are above all extremely important, but if you want people to read you, lets face it...the cover needs to draw attention.

Some people use gimmicks, follow trends while others like to follow their voice and pick from various places to make themselves look as they feel they should. As i mentioned before i observed a lot from my family growing up and when I came to that age of noticing girls (high school for me) I did my best with what i had to help cover the contents of my book. Granted my book was fatter than other (yea i was the fat boy in school), but i made sure i wasn't the "stinky kid" or the "nasty fat boy". I had a lot of misses, but some hits so i know it wasn't all that bad, high school after all is very superficial.

Once i was done with high school and did a few months in college i was out in the world. When you're on your own things can go in many different directions when you're the only one responsible for your physical upkeep. I've seen extremes on both end and everything in between. Its kinda weird to see people not really give a shit about their personal appearance or how curtain aspects of their physical that other people can notice (smells being one of them) they tend to not pay that much attention too and let slip. On the flip side I've seen people spend way too much time on themselves to the point of acting like a mannequin while they are out and about and hope that not even a single strand of hair is out of place. To each their own of course.

Where am i with my physical upkeep? I'm good with mine; I'm working out more, i make sure i look presentable. I'll admit sometimes let the facial hair go to get that rugged look going. Most of the time I'm straight with mines, only problems i have is dry lips and facial hair issues. I don't like putting anything on them (lips) and when i lose focus on myself i tend to find myself with them (dry lips)....which i then immediately correct as with anything else along with any hints of a uni-brow (which i find disgusting).

I wont front when I'm able to i like to get my nails done with a nice buff polish. If you're a dude reading this.....WOMEN NOTICE YOUR HANDS. Unless they like that look of you digging through the dirt all day AND having a fight with a bottle of Talcum Powder, you should look into fixing that up. I would say unless ur like me with naturally soft hands and feet, having rough skin is a 50/50 thing with women, some like soft others like rough.

I guess everyone may come to a point of how they take care of themselves be it good or bad; all i know is what encompasses my world, my own focus and those that are affected by it.....then i just take what i know, what i learned and see if its a good addition to my arsenal.

BSoM

P.S. To any dudes AND females reading this or who like to give advice like this to other people.......NEVER and i mean NEVER fart before a date after you've gotten dressed. That shit lingers and you don't wanna be smelling like ass when you're trying to get up close to a cutie and it smells like you forgot to wipe. I'm just sayin'.

P.P.S. Good point from TrapSwagg in the comments; i forgot to mention the whole "Metrosexual" bullshit. I am and never will go to that extreme and if that's you or your man then hey more power to you, but i think for a man that's a little past the line of taking extra care of yourself.

I've Been Feelin' Like A Beast

I just dont know what is it, these past few weeks i've been feeling like a beast. Anything i do i want to do it with force, with strong feeling, with a drive that makes me want to knock down walls and stand on a pile of rocks banging my chest, showing my teeth and scream that human primal scream.

I see it as a positive cuz most of the time i let myself play the background with what i would kinda guess to call a "silent inner power" (when i'm having a good day). I hope this feeling last a bit longer before i get into winter mode which i'm trying to break.

I met an old aquantince while i was at the gym and while he was busy staring at the women trying to beam out that "playboy vibe" while i just focused on working out; we chatted real quick and i said i want to do the opposite of what peoples natural body clock tells them to do for the seasons; I dont want to be laid up in bed at home durning the winter gaining weight and then get my ass out and about to get myself right when spring/summer comes.

Next summer i want to be out & runnin', maybe hit the gym for some stamina training instead of losing weight for those hot summer days when i'd rather be beach bound or whatever.

All that aside i'm really running with this beast feeling and enjoying it until i hit my bad spot cuz at least i know that i have that side of me and as a man, it feels good. I wish i had it before, but we come into our own at our own pace. No one is the same. Nor should we be what people want from us if we're not ready.

BSoM

I Got My Drink And My Two Step

Things are kinda slow for me these past couple of weeks as far as not being stressed by anything, but on the flip side not that much good or anything exciting has been poppin' off. Now when that happens I'm sure you know you get to thinking about your past.

My mind touched on how my friends and I, once we hit that age, started going to strip clubs. We hit various places and the older we got and more money we had the better the place we visit.

We've hit some grimy places. I'm talking bout stretch marks for day, bad attitudes and even a 250 pound (oh, yes!) beast working the tension of her thong to its limits on that stage. Even the stripper poles were bending out of the way of her path so they don't feel the wrath of her mighty mighty meaty power and get damaged in her attempts to be sexy and get them dollar bills.

We were young and stupid. We had plenty of fun; from who got the best lap dance from the thickest female to one friend who always SWORE that the stripper was feeling him, but when he called the number she gave him it was the wrong phone #. Staggering home drunk while the sun peaked out its first light for those sorry bastards eating a shitty meal at a dirty ass diner before we slug on home and wake up that evening and do it again.

It was a fun experience; not saying its good or bad. I know i eased off when i started to look "familiar" to some of the "round the way" spots and instead of talking that good shit while getting a lap dance the girl wants to talk about her kids.......i'm like "WTF"????

On our back and forth journeys we would see the guys that we could have turned into if we weren't careful sitting at the bar, drink after drink, drunk staring at women they wish they could score, yet knowing they can't pursue anything other than good sex and a drained wallet IF they gave these guys the time of day, yet there they were time after time trying to turn a stripper into a housewife or bless them with wifey status. Its hard now a days to do that with a regular women with so much shit someone could carry that doing it with a stripper its even worse.

Its fun to reminisce on the past and from time to time....its normal and puts a smile on my face. I haven't been to a strip club in years. Its an experience a young man shouldn't be without, but it does have its limits. It's fun to visit every now and then, but when you start remembering that it's "Buffet Thursday" and that chick with the fat ass, Lexus, is dancing that day too......then you need to step back and enjoy ur life without the booty shaking you're paying for with a watered drink or 9 dollar beer in your hand.

BSoM

P.S. Wish i could have found a black barbie picture cuz i like mines Round & Brown, lol.

I Got That Fire Finger

A friend of mine asked me recently "What urks you?"

I couldn't answer that question on the spot so we thought it would make a nice post on my blog.

I can say right now that i can basically nit pick a ton of shit off anyone or anything for the simple fact is i have OCD...obsessive compulsive disorder...and hot damn if its not just that A DISORDER.

I can tell you now that is one of the things about me that urks others, but we not here for that ;-)

Anyway for the most part i pay attention to detail on many things in my life so i won't really focus on the small stuff (just some core things) cuz if i do I'll be here ALL. DAY. LONG.

LYING

I'm no saint, but i'm a person that if i meet you or i have some measure of trust in you i will believe what you say; if it's not the truth and you come to me later and you're like "ummm that's not the whole truth" I doubt I'll believe anything you'll say unless you're willing to prove it. I'd rather someone not tell me shit rather than give me a bullshit story. If you're close to someone THEY WILL FIND OUT. Besides not everyone can keep a secret. I've learned so much shit about other people through a third party, cuz they couldn't keep their mouth shut, that i just laugh inside when i see a person and know they are lying.

WALKING

Hey idiots we walk on the right in the country; move the fuck over and walk on the right. I just want to punch an idiot in the liver that wants to walk on the left or zig zags (OMG which gets in the way of EVERYONE) and fucks the walking flow up when they're trying to get to where they're going. With tourists I'll give you a pass cuz yes this city is amazing, but if you look at me like "hey douche bag I'm acting like a turkey in this city by looking up at amazing tall ass buildings while on a busy side walk, what the fuck is your problem" after i say excuse me, oh you will get the football shoulder in the heart when i breeze by.

I live and work in one of the busiest city's in the world so if they pass a law you better believe I'll be the first in line for that Liver Punching Patrol job.

VOMIT ADVICE QUOTES

Sounds nasty right? Well its not. Follow my words and you'll see it isn't. Every now and then people would ask me for advice or just ask my views on certain things. I would be true and honest in what i say because that's what they expect from a person and i make sure the person gets that when I'm speaking with them while exchanging verbal energy; hopefully they'll get something worth while from my insight and perspective.

With vomit quotes, people will just repeat the same shit that's been told over the years and we're numb to it cuz is already background advice noise. For prime example:

"There's more fish in the sea" -duh, who the fuck doesn't know that, but i just lost the one fish off my plate that i loved having, whats ur point fuck nose?

"Tomorrow's another day" -what? unless you end that sentence with "and I'm sending a hot female to make you feel better and she lacks a gag reflex", no? Then you know what.....I'll pass and close my ears to you.

"The grass is greener on the other side of the fence" -well you know what when I'm able to jump that fence to the good side after coppin a mean shit on the bad side then being able to hop over to the good side.....the only place to look at right now is to the greener side of the fence so don't remind me its better than where I'm at now.

"It is what it is" -this is now the hood's most repeated quote by far. Yea i know what it is, and i know what you're not.....original. No one sounds smart saying this fucking line anymore. Ask someone to explain it when they say this quote. All they gonna do is repeat the fucking thing again to you, lol.

INTERRUPTERS

LOL, that's for you RG!! hahahaha! Yea you know if you gonna cut in on me you better be ready for the same :-)

UNWANTED ARROGANCE

Okay we get it, you have a good life. You might be a "baller", hell you might even make it rain. But when you act like "I am the stink floating above all the shit".....that makes me smile knowing god is gonna put a foot to that throat and humble your ass.

TWO FACENESS

These people just kill me, lol. I'm talking about the type of person who jokingly calls you a hoe, but knows in the back of they head they need a new pair of knee pads cuz they been done wore out the old pair cuz of over use and runs the block with the nick name "Vacuum" that the dudes gave her. That's just pure ugly soul right there, lol. Granted that's an extreme example, but hey why half ass it and be nice?

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What I'm trying to convey here is that if someone comes to you to and seek to vent, wanting a bit of enlightenment through the pain and other things that would help ease the stress......Being there for someone in their time of need is a good thing and if you can help then even better, but cookie cutter advice just doesn't cut it anymore, life is not a sitcom; there are no commercial breaks and the tears are real.

That's all i have right now. What shit you dont like that you wanna give the fire finger to?

BSoM

Alcohol!

Christ on a crutch, this quote is soooooo true, lol.

Are people extra interested in you when they are drunk, knowing you're not that interesting?

Well now, you have some life evaluations you need to preform don't you.

BSoM

Please...

Right now my head is buzzing to the point where i can't think straight.

You ever had just random thoughts just in and out of your head like people cramming through a revolving door after someone yelled FIRE?!! Well that's me right now.

To off set things I've given myself topics and answered them. It help ease the mental. For the most part I'm not going to focus on curtain events in my life, just my general feelings on these topics.

LOVE

How do i love......sometimes with blind devotion to the point where if i can pull the heart out of my chest, thread a chain through it, glue some rhine stones on it then put it around my loved ones neck. Sounds weird and sweet all wrapped up in one, right? I've told myself plenty of times before "i'mma sucka for love"; but if that vibe goes sour, ur just a sucka. Who da fuck knows? Among politics and religion, love is one of those topics i hate to debate with people. With so many views, not many can get it right. If you cant get it right all you have is that last sentence ringing between your ears when you're sent back to the dating line "I love you, but I'm not in love with you". Please insert a foot into the ass of the idiot who came up with that line. Thanks.

DEATH

OOOOOOOOO, this is a touchy subject, but fuck what you think; I'm talking about myself and splashing my thoughts up in this blog. I think about death a lot....A LOT, if you follow my blog you'll know why. Doesn't help i got a call from my dad telling me one of my cousins is dying of lung cancer. Its a weird feeling to let those thoughts consume you and scare the shit out of you. I've had feelings of utter crippling anxiety to calming thought of whatever waits for us after our bodies pass will be something wondrous. But like the rest of the world, who the fuck knows what happens and I'm just glad these are just passing feelings and i can get over it. How can a person live when all they worry about is death? Easy, you can't. Once I'm past those thoughts I'm back to my normal self. I just hope what i bring from those feelings are new perspectives on life with what i need to do next in my life before god reaches for my switch and flicks it to the OFF position.

LIFE

Just live it. If you're old enough to know the kind of person you are and you're already bored with it, do something different. You're and introvert...so do something you normally wouldn't (safely please!). If you always worried about what people think of you and what you do.....go up to a person who is always critical about you and scream "FUCK WHAT YOU THINK" to their face. A lot of people put up their own little white picket fence around their mind and trick themselves into thinking "this is it" and I'm so fucking amazed at that. Mind you as for me i have my "think shit through" moments when making an important decision, but come on, you want to do that when picking out a pair of slacks or shoes? All I'm saying is whatever you think life is.....its much more than what you think it is.

FRIENDS

From the people you love to the people you love to hate. I've had my share of needy assholes sucking on my emotional teet for comfort it made us both look like idiots from afar. I've also had amazing friends where we did nothing but bring laughter and fun to each others life. What happens with most of my friends? Its what always happens with any kind of relationship good or bad.....people tend to drift apart and some do so permanently. Doesn't matter how they go its just that they do. If it happened to you just take what you learned and use it to grow in such a way that you're a better person as the time passes.

LUST

I've been here before so many times, but which person hasn't? From lusting for the people you know to the people you don't. This is what drives a lot of people crazy; i know I've sucked from the crazy sippy straw of the cup of lust more than once in my early years. How did I deal with it? In the past I've literally cut people out of my life because i knew what i was lusting for wasn't gonna turn into reality, its that young shit....how the fuck am i suppose to know how to deal with that shit? I've never had a mentor to guide me or dealt with anyone with the views and advice on life that would help me process the fire that burned in my youth. So when i was young it was either ALL OR NOTHING, I'm not gonna lie I've lost some good people, but fuck it.....its life right? Live it or get out of the way. If i feel that now, i just laugh because at least i know how to handle it and if its a nice risk, i might take it, but I'm getting to old for superficial risks.

PASSION

Very important part of life. To have a passion to do something is a great thing. It shows that life isn't a complete wash and the door to new experiences is still open. I'm still seeking out new passions in my life and i have a few on the hook, just seeing which one is worth pulling in. Can't blame a person for being picky. With the passion for something new weather they be hobbies, people or professions it's best not to spread yourself thin and give it proper focus.

CHEATING

Ugh! Shitting feeling it is. If you're one, god help you. Make sure your nasty ass OR the one that's fucking your nasty ass wears a condom. You're a piece of shit if you're doing this or have done this; i just hope you're comfortable with yourself if you are, because it will happen to you shitbag. That's all i got to say about that shit.

LYING/TRUTH

Everyone does it; if you haven't......well you're either a better person than i am or one of the biggest fucking liars to walk the earth. Should we lie to spare someones feeling? Sure, if they're a child. Otherwise let the truth rip baby! Weather you want to surprise smack someone on the side of the head with it or be nice about it and let them brace themselves for whats being said to them. If its the kinda thing where it will bubble up, why risk the stress of a fight if its an old lie? One of the best lines that has stuck with me "The people who tell the truth have less to remember"; i figga it this way; you'd have a better path to where your life is headed if its guided by truth.

FAMILY

These are the people you have to love, but not like. I have a few family members that i don't talk to for various reasons, none you should concern yourself with, yes i do understand blood is thicker than water......but are they not human like me? Plenty of people i do and don't get along with that aren't family, but someone who is an asshole isn't born unto himself, they are blood with someone and I'm sure they don't like them either. With me blood or relation doesn't give you a pass. Act out of turn, you can get it like everyone else.

WORK

Whats to say; we all need to do it....well for those that are able....usually its a love/hate relationship. Do what you want and love what you want to do. No matter how much money it puts in your pocket.

BSoM